great.

So if you haven't heard, I'm now a clerk.

Yes, I oot-ed on monday.. cause I sustained a back injury and couldn't continue with the training program due to a long term status, hence they axed me.. There, that's all there is to know.. 

and I wish all the stupid people back at camp will just stop asking me stupid questions (since now I work at the office they think I know everything. I say get a life bugger.. I'm a clerk, I don't freakin plan your training schedule, if your pc doesn't want to tell you then suck thumb!) 

I especially hate this particular dumbass who asked me bout 3 times, eh why you want to be clerk.. dude, it's not like they give me a choice. "Hello oot, what will you like for your vocation? we take your response very seriously! a) clerk b) storeman c) medic d) rp"

and here's the best part : that dumbass is also an oot-clerk.. keeps telling me " wah if I had a choice I wan stay as diver" HELLO you got kicked out cause you failed at a test, (suck thumb loser!) unlike me who actually have a medical condition.

Great, just great. I haven't ranted like this in a long time now.

Smalltown boy

I went to St. Regis hotel today.. It's a 6 star hotel as I just found out today. Not bad.. It felt a little like I was on holiday.. We (with the family) then walked around town a little and had lunch..

Mom started on how she used to come here alot a long time ago for certain reasons.. which lead to dad also talking about how often he used to come by another area of town, followed by my sis.. and so on..

I didn't have much to say.. I realized I haven't been around town for a long time now (passing by doesn't count).. I also realized that I have little memory of me in town as a small boy.. (the only few times I remembered were hardrock cafe once, and toys r us a couple of times..) 

I spent most of my day in this tiny little obscured neighborhood, Teban Gardens.. Much like myself, it's a pretty darn quite place and to some, a mystically mysterious place.. (the elf lands)

That's probably why I like exploring new places for no particular reason.. (i mean people go to a new place to find something interesting there? I just go there cause I find the place interesting).. still I got alot of catching up to do..

somniphobia

For some reason, I don't feel like sleeping at all. (I only had one drink so it's not because of that).. I remember in 'James Bond: die another day' the villain said that sleeping was a waste of time and that he could achieve so much more by using his sleep time for other activities.

Maybe it's just the fear that if I fall asleep, this weekend would pass all too quickly again.. (and in no time I'll be whining about going back to camp again) or maybe it's the fact that I've been having too many late Friday nights in contrast to this, making it feel so out of place.

Sitting here waiting for something interesting to happen isn't exactly very productive as well.. sometimes I just feel so 'out there', floating around in space.. a very cold and dark space.

Trains

I took a train down to dover (from camp) this morning and went for my physiotherapy at MMI.. 

I like taking the train in the morning, at the time where the sun is just rising.. It makes the view outside nice.. the view inside, even better when not 1 but 3 really cute and pretty girls boarded the train.. and this is me coming straight from camp (devoid of eye candy of any sort), I tried hard not to stare, but steal glances instead.

 I don't like taking the train at night, cause that usually means I'm tired and I'm about to book in.

anyway.. I was early so I decided to take a detour and visit the old school.. (i was hungry!) but was disappointed as the food courts were mostly closed due to the school holidays.. still, it was a nice feeling being back at school for awhile (in contrast to being in camp, it's like lala land)..

I have to go back again next friday.. which means i'll be having more fun adventures outside camp.. hopefully this time they'll let me go straight home after that.. 

kelly

Remember Kelly Clarkson? hah, of course you do.. She was the first and probably most successful of all the american idol winners. I just saw her on tv performing her new hit song and she looked like she gain quite alot of weight. no matter she still looks pretty cute in this video. of course, I could be biased cause the video was made to make her look that way. anyway just watch the video and you'll know what I mean. 

the it' fair

The it fair has always been scary to me (the crowds will just kill you especially if you're short).. traumatizing, crazy fun.. I usually try to get what I want quick and get out.. lest I have nothing better to do with my time (like last year, when I was bumming around for a couple of months), I'll mosh around with the crowds inside..

It's also scary cause you get attacked by 'flyer' people who will show no mercy.. I found the best counter to be putting your hands in your pockets.. Then there are also the sales people who talk really fast and pressure you a whole lot when you just want to take a look at what's new.. (and when you finally decide to buy something, they're nowhere to be found)

now if only I was a foot taller (I'd settle for even half a foot taller).. I imagine I'd be seeing the back of people's heads less and more exciting things all around. like the hot sales girl or the cute girl seemingly lost in the crowds, both of which I couldn't catch due to my averagely short height.

Not to say that I returned home empty handed this year, cause I bought a 32 inch sony tv.. and got a free psp lite too.. not a bad deal.. Don't think I'll be returning, though it's tempting.. I didn't really get a chance to really explore and marvel at all the cool gadgets.. this happens every time cause I get to lazy to fight my way through the crowds (or get too distracted), oh well I'll just wait for the review in the papers..

my brain

Somehow every time I feel like crap I can't process what I really want to say. Which is really bad cause it makes me feel even sadder and all my thoughts vaporizes (thats when I start to stone).. That's when I'd like to go and watch a really good movie or tv show to fill the devoid in my mind. Yes tv is generally for zombie like, empty soulless people, ironically it is also the second leading cause for zombie like, empty soulless people. 1st is of course the army (in general)

Being zombie really sucks but there are perks too. like lunging at people and be careless about how bad you stink. bad part is there is no choice for who you want to lung at and start tearing at their guts, instinct just tells you to. Zombie also has high tolerance for irritating people, the kind that repeated shove their shotguns in your face and ask, "yarrr does that hurt? does that hurt?" (yes, sorry I have been playing left4dead)

okay, I admit I've been depressed (they gave me 2 days off for that!).. at stage 2 now, where I start talking lots of crap and laugh really hard and loud occasionally.. stage 1's ignoring and shutting people out.. so if I've been ignoring, being mean to you over the past few weeks, now you know. sorry (no, it's not because you stole my combat rations or beat me at starcraft.)

HAH, anyway I've found something better to do now.. Off I go ! 

the Watchmen are watching

I watched watchmen last night. Prior to that, I knew nothing of the watchmen except that it wasn't very popular with the people of my generation..(still seemed like a pretty cool movie to catch) So if you're like me and haven't got a clue what's the story like.. well it's set in the US (of cuz) in the time of the vietnam war - cold war era.. 

The movie is dark, and the heroes are psychotic and mental disturbed (pwns batman in the psychotic aspect) which gives the movie an M18 rating and makes it a whole lot more interesting.

watchmen is a different sort of comic book movie altogether..but I'm sure you figured that out already, just by looking at their costumes and names.. like nite owl, the comedian, silk spectre.. A really good alternative if you've been watching too many mainstream superman type comic book movies..

The watchmen

money money money

money can't buy happiness. bummer

but it certainly can make me happier ! cheers woohoo. 

I think I've been spending my money on more and more unnecessary things.. especially on cab fares.

oh well, whatever makes you happy.. my dollars aren't good for anything else anyway.

bangalas

This morning I saw 2 bangalas in the park.. one was on a bike, the other was running along side 'making' the one on the bike.. the one on the bike toppled to the side and the one running tripped over the fallen bike and nearly fell.. they were both laughing and seemingly having a good time..

The life of a bangala can't be good. Minimum wage, hard labour, away from home.. yet they seem to be a happy lot for most I've seen.. For one, they are capable of doing anything they want without giving a care. lying around in fields drinking beer, holding hands even though it seems gay, driving those garbage buggies around while making it seem like its really fun.. (i suppose you don't really smell the garbage when you drive cuz the wind would be blowing against you)

if you remembered a long time ago, i also mentioned here that a bangala wanted to take a picture with me using the laptop's webcam in a sony shop.. I think the bangalas here in sg have come a long way from their slums back in wherever to the void decks of sg. 

Where would we be without them building our walkways and parks.. Sg should have a bangala appreciation day (not bad of an excuse for another public holiday, and I know what you're thinking.. it's not the same as labour day)