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so if you're still interested in reading/finding out what kinda person i am/who my life is. pls do pop on by. and if you still wanna read this blog, well it'll still be here.. just not updated.

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Courage

I'm turning 22 this year, and sometimes when I think about how I've grown, from a little boy.. I'd like to think I've grown into a courageous young man. Bigger, stronger, fierce and not afraid of anything. But sometimes, I realize I'm just a coward. Sure I may have grown from a kid, not afraid of falling, yet so afraid of failing.

I'm so afraid, I can't even admit my mistakes.. set things right. I'm so afraid of failing, I forget what's more important in life.

Hence I can only pay for my inabilities and actions. When I was a kid, I was timid, I was always afraid.. but for the many instances I can remember I always stood for what was right, I didn't care what people think. Now I do care what people think, no matter how I wish I didn't.

I am but a shadow of the boy I once was..

Oh courage, won't you let me make the right decisions.

tlc

I went to the dentist today. The camp dentist..

To check out my wisdom tooth, hence on the 22nd i'll be going to ndc to let the dental surgeon cut open my gums n pry out my lower right tooth.

Anyway.. The dentist today was nice. She also helped me do some maintenance, cleaning.. and caused some areas of my gums to bleed like hell, (but i didn't really feel it) and now that area is a little sensitive to cold water, and the cold air. Sitting in the inclined chair, there was always a lot knee jerks and bad experiences from the past.

but this dentist was different. It probably helped that I think she looked nice (there's a difference between looking nice and looking pretty) when I say she looks nice, I mean it in a nice way. Like she couldn't possibly be capable of anything evil and will be gentle and kind to my teeth. Which she was. Now I can't really tell you if she's pretty, cause she was all scrubbed up, shower cap, face mask, ppe.. She also had that reassuring tone in her voice, which all dentist should learn to adopt. not the intimidating, 'hehe I'm gonna cause you lots of hurt' kinda tone.

She also never pried open my mouth with lotsa force like most dentist do. you can't open your mouth wide enough for them to see some places and they just have to force it open, geez learn to be gentle with people's mouth. She was gentle.. I've never felt so safe sitting on a dentist' chair

well overall there's no taking away the pain.. but there was less knee jerk this time. I was calmer.