It's spring

I took the train to work this morning, just like every other morning. The 645 bus, followed by the 7 am train. plus-minus 5 mins..

I took the same train as my sub-colleague from the medical center ( I work in the hyperbaric center) I hadn't noticed him for a few stops. he was sleeping/listening to mp3.. on a normal day I would be to. but I was listening to mp3/doing something else (i'll get to that later, it's part of the story)

I took the train this morning, just like every other morning. the 7 am train. I betcha at least 20 people take the same train with the same people 4 outta 5 times a week. in fact I think 20 is an understatement, but I did say at least..

cause alot of people are routine people. we find a good time to get out of bed and head to work/school and we stick to it. we have a favorite spot on the train platform to stand and we stick to it (well usually)

I usually like to get a seat so I can catch some sleep in the morning. sometimes seats fill up fast and I'm left to sit beside the fat guy, or the guy with B.O but today I was left to sit beside this cute jc girl, the kinda of girl that makes guys like me want to hold and protect her from all things evil and nasty.

It might not have been entirely on luck but the fact that I was checking her out from 2 doors away, and decided to move a door closer to get a better view before the train arrived. Before you know it I was sitting beside her, checking her out from the reflections off the window opposite. (okay.. I think I've said too much now.!)

btw, if you've missed it, this was the doing something else I was talking about. So anyway to sum things up (here we go again)

I took the train this morning. Just like every other morning. The 7 am train. I noticed this cute girl. (who say they don't notice cute girls on a regular basis, you're bluffing they deserve some credit !) She looked kinda familiar to me. It was then I realized that we have been taking the same train regularly.

Later I thought ; there's probably a whole bunch of people out there who board the same train as me in the morning on a regular basis. kinda like train-buddies ya know. I just haven't noticed, and I probably won't. Just as the answer is to the question, will I ever talk to her.

cause on most days, my eyes would be shut. ears sometimes plugged too. Fact is, everyone's doing that. kinda puts a new meaning to 'living in a box' doesn't it.

phrase of the day

and the phrase of the day goes to random lian in the train !

"eh ta zai 'stalk' ni lei. ni kai xin mah ? "

he's stalking you lei, you happy mah ? some random ah lian was talking loudly and I couldn't help but overheard while I was playing fifa street on my psp.

now I couldn't really catch what the friend replied to that.. bcuz 1, I wasn't really listening. 2, if I remembered she was making this really sqeekie-cutsy kinda voice which made it hard to understand her. It was then I looked up and saw that wooaaaaah.

she wasn't really cute at all.

ps. I don't dig the cutsy voice thing, it caught my attention bcuz it was irritating. Let's be clear on this. It's like someone pokes you'd instinctively look up to see who it is.

So back to the phrase of the day,

Would you be happy if you knew someone was stalking you ?

It's kinda of a silly question to ask, but the world we live in is kinda messed up and all diluted. so good thing, bad thing ? it's all up to you .

So last cny a caucasian guy pops up in the family picture. He was my cousin's bf, and she intro-ed everyone. This year that same guy is now my cousin fiancé, and my cousin seems really happy so gratz to her.

I kinda wished that I could share a similar kind of joy. as I sipped some red wine, I felt a burning sensation down my throat and in my heart and dissolves into sourness. better known as a 'heart ache' but I prefer not to call it that. It' just sounds so sad, and that's something I'm not.

It's more of a feeling that drives me every now and then. It's there and it's comforting cause I know then that I'm still alive, that I have a spirit, a soul. It tells me that I have something worthwhile going on. It's a feeling that says, where ever you are, who ever you are out there, whether you've met me before or not; I look forward to meeting you.

I bumped my teeth on a glass bottle. From the soy milk drink I had bought on my way home, hopefully it'll help me stay asleep after I fall asleep. I was walking on uneven ground and is more than just a little high from a couple of beers. So hopefully the milk will help me stay asleep once I crash into my bed, 2 pillows and bolsters comfortably.

I was really tired before going out tonight. but I was in a good mood and a couple of drinks really kicked in. I let myself go. A really juicy tasty burger 2 and a half pints of beer down, I'm just kinda floating now.

just awesome. Beer always tastes best when you're happy :)

numb

It might have been awhile since I blogged. nah, I actually drafted one awhile ago, I just didn't publish.. It hasn't been a very good start of the new year for me.

and you know what, forget about the be happy, be optimistic. I deserve to be sad (at least for today), so don't go on try cheer me up. Never mind that I can't get high, but I feel numb instead. Never mind that I know I won't be able to sleep as much as I would like to fall asleep for days.

what's f up is I'm still not feeling it. the sadness. It's cause I'm still optimistic. but there is no point to empty optimism, so bring on the misery. I want to be sad !@# throw in a little frustration too.. I got locked out and now I'm tired but I can't fall asleep.

decongestant

Decongestant, why didn't i think of that first.. I had that 10 ml of oxymetazoline hydrochloride from a few years back. I suspect it's past it's shelf expiry date, but oh well too late I used it. potent stuff, I wonder how it works though.. and the answer is here

I've been down with a bad flu for the past few days.. well actually almost the whole of last week, and my nose is totally blocked, until now as I administered the decongestant. It's weird as i can still feel the back of my nasal cavities being congested, but breathing through my nose is easier now.

sucks to be sick, which I happen to be quite often. I don't know why, I've been like this since young you'd think my immune system should be stronger now. maybe it's just bugged or something.

bummer, I've been feeling kinda low lately.

Having to work tomorrow doesn't help.. Sitting here wondering if she's avoiding me isn't gonna make me happier too.

I'm lost for words

don't worry

If ya don't already know, the above awesome song was written by Mr. Mraz for his friend who had cancer, fought it and survived.. (if I'm not wrong he did survive, maybe thats why it's called the remedy ? hah )

anyway I was watching Ellen just now, and there was jimmy kimmel (that guy's awesome) and then there was this guy who knew the late M.J and then wrote a book. I wasn't really paying attention as I was eating. I wish I did now, cause he seemed to have wrote about something really interesting.

something about how one's emotional state can alter one's genes. and the effects of being happy and not stressed out, being in love, loving life.. there's actual research that suggests, well many things. certain 'bad genes' are responsible for bad stuff like heart failure, cancer stuff that makes you die .. but by being happy and all that, we can prevent all that bad genes thing.. i don't really know what I'm saying, like I said I wasn't paying much attention.. (I might it up later if I have time )

but the whole idea makes sense.. when you think about stories of people winning the battle against cancer..