running through the forests

Remember this video ? from a couple years back

I really feel like doing what he's doing now, running through a perfectly beautiful forest although we all know that kinda forest hardly exists without all the video editing and stuffs.

In fact I feel like running so much even though it's raining outside I just might. and I'm not talking about running for exercise, just run aimlessly until I'm satisfied and then wander around aimlessly again until I'm satisfied.

I guess I'm kinda feeling trapped here.. and I need to run.

come let us be idle

With the prospects of a new university in singapore.. the Singapore institute of technology. I'm called upon to re-evaluate my future plans. future being only 4 months later.. wow.. it's exciting and really scary all at the same time..

application for the current year opens and is about to close in a couple of weeks.. So I gotta make the decision.. do I apply ? well of course there, why not there's no harm in applying.. no brainer really. as for the rest of the decisions. and the tedious filling up of applications.. I decided to give it a break halfway.. I shall continue tomorrow or some other time

because I'm tired and I just want to lie in bed and slack.

I wish I could have a whole day of that..

and a whole week of time to myself to do whatever I want..

I'm tired, I'm scared of the future.. I feel like I'm out there all on my own. (fact is I kinda am in a certain way) It's almost like puberty all over again, the teen years. cept it's real this time.. it's not all just in my head.

there's a saying, if you work hard early in your life (you won't play later) you'll only end up working harder later on. Its like working hard in school, to say become a doctor, or some other higher paying job thats freaking stressful and suck the hell outta your life 24/7

but if you slack early in your life, you'll slack even more later on. These are basically the kind who uses their creativity.. writers, musicians, artists entrepreneurs investors.. whatever works you know as long as you live. and then you'll understand the true essence of living. Working when you feel like it, waking up at whatever time you like. Not having that cooperate material desire.

now tell me. which life would you prefer ?

consider this

The common skepticism about our dying earth is that there is probably nothing we can do to save it, it's too late.. we'll all die.. and the excuses we give for not trying.. 'we're just a handful of people what difference can we make?' now the common rebuttal to that excuse would be ' If everyone changed their attitude and worked together ... ...'

It's wrong really.. a handful of people can make a difference.. a huge one.. or even just 1 really smart guy. Some of the stuff on discovery magazine is really interesting.

Okay everyone knows that human kind is soon running out of oil and many brilliant people out there are working on solutions.. This first idea is kinda simple, in a sense that it hits you like 'why didn't I think of that' instead of ' wow I could never have thought of that' Just check this out. It's pretty cool and it actually might work.

Think global warming, fuel crisis, rising sea levels 50 years ago.. give a f*** ? well one man(Carl Hodges) saw it, and had a solution to all 3 problems.. but people just didn't give a f*** until now. Link is here.

I know the 2nd link is wordy and lacking in pictures.. so I'll give ya the short version.. The idea is using the sea water (which is overflowing in abundance) to cultivate bio-fuel plants (that grows on saltwater) in the desert..
using tons of seawater to 'water the desert' = less rising of sea levels
less desert + more plants = less global warming
more bio-fuel.. well you get it..

brilliant stuff huh. I hope you feel guilty now if you've ever said 'what difference can one man make ?'

work sucks I know

' if you took to me like a gull takes to the wind, well I'd jump from my tree and I'd dance like the king of the eyesores'

What was I gonna say here .. I totally forgot.

Anyway work sucks, it's been a sucky 3 days and another 3 more sucky days to come.. yes I'm working on Saturday too.

I miss 09'.. even though it kinda sucked as a whole.. but things were less complicated back then..
scratch that, I miss my friends. I miss a certain someone who I just wanna hang out with.. Nothing more, nothing less..

Simple.

what gets you down

Hey people. you know sometimes all it takes is a bad day at work and everything in your world as you know it comes spiraling down.. and it's a little demoralizing ..

It's the worse feeling in the world when you start to feel sorry for your own little life.. and look around in desperate hope for someone who'd empathize and feel the same.. and then suddenly you're thinking up every reason why your life sucks.. gawd I still miss her.. damn my parents still treat me like a kid sometimes. I'm fucking 22. The stupid bus didn't show today and made me late.. in a nut shell you feel terrible. you feel like crying but you think crying is bad cause you'd only have another sucky detail to add to your life. 'fuck I'm an adult and I cry myself to sleep over nuts' and it's all pointless..

it's pathetic but we gotta learn that we're human and sometimes we just forget how awesome life is meant to be..

Nasi ?

I had nasi lemak for breakfast today. and lunch. and would've been dinner too if someone didn't throw the leftovers away.

While I didn't plan for it, I was too lazy to go for lunch. and by the time I woke up the cookhouse had kept their dinner.. So I walked back to the medical center thinking.. nasi lemak again ? I had a muffin instead. Other than that and the chicken pie I ate before I left my home, I've been eating nasi lemak all day.

anyway. I'm listening to this again. the first mtv ever to air on mtv.. kinda awesome don't ya think?

early bird

My nights have been getting shorter.. I'm usually asleep by about now.. and thats what I'm gonna do after this. cause sleeping, well it's joy. especially when you get up for work in the morning not feeling tired (got extra motivation to get up and leave my home on time too). everyone should try it.

The only downside to this is that I can't finish writing songs in the short time I have at home awake.. taking into account the essentials, bath, eat, some admin stuffs.. packing.. blah blah.. I'd only have about 2 hours left.. and I've been trying to write songs for awhile now but if I can't finish at least a verse and a chorus in 1 night.. the efforts usually go to waste..

and then there's wow-ing too.. which takes up most of my time when I do play. Sad as it may sound, on most days.. I go to work.. come home.. wow.. sleep and go to work again the next morning. and I'm actually happy with that routine.. oh whatever works.

I've also been shopping for the past 3 days. which in total I spent a good sum of close to 300.. (I didn't buy anything today) It's great.. tomorrow's friday.. I'm gonna turn in now..

Its who we are

I learnt 2 things today.

1. Tears tastes bitter. I don't know why, it just does.

2. retail therapy really works. I don't know how, it just does.

A couple of other things I already knew but re-confirmed today.

1. there's an automatic +5 in hotness for ladies in any sort of uniform or office wear.

2. The Whooper is burger king's best burger.

3. Foreign workers in the retail dept always seem to be friendlier and more approachable then their local counterparts.

4. Passed the court on my way home just now. I miss those days when right now at 959, i'm playing soccer. that is until the lights at the court turn off at 10.

the other times

sometimes it's better not doing anything at all..

but how can we ever know those are the times ?