Somedays

Somedays are just bored to hell. Well fact is most days are. but I don't blame the days. The problem is me. See I have a pretty 'under-achievers' kinda life. I'd rather stay in the lower league all my life and never be disappointed as opposed to if I went to the 'premiere league' , struggle and fail..

Maybe thats why part of me now doesn't feel like going to further my studies. If life is simple and you keep your eyes half-shut most of the way, you'll be happy. I'm just scared I'll waste more time.. probably more than a quarter of my life's been gone already and there's no way to get it back.

I have nothing. nothing to my name, my education is 2 years out of date, I woke up and realized I have nothing good going on, nothing anyone would put their stakes into. Nothing but false hopes.

I'm stuck in a rut. and perhaps my greatest fear is to stuck here forever, all alone no acceptance.

Somedays I just feel so tired, I wonder if I will ever wake up again not feeling this tired.