I probably knew this was happening long ago but I've ignored it and continue to think that when I ord I will still be able to find a job and be borderline efficient at it.
who am I kidding. all my skills and knowledge attained from 3 years at poly has left me. I find it really frustrating sometimes when I open up photoshop illustrator or flash that I've become so unfamiliar with it. I resort to going online searching for tutorials and it gets more frustrating when I cant find what I want or I can't understand it when I find it.
and there is no bright side to this, I've seem to lost my eagerness in creativity too. musically, graphically, always the lack of mood.. This dry spell of inspirational creativity won't end here.
I suddenly remembered why I used to despise social conformity so much. I've allowed myself to stop being bitter for the sake of it.
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