first days

First days always suck the most, especially when you're in a place held against your own will..

In an odd, unfamiliar environment.. and you know you're not here to have fun.. and the people all seem weird, different. it all adds up to disaster.

I never liked firsts days.. Some people get excited about their first day of school... first day of work and stuff.. I just get anxious, I ask myself what am I doing here.. First days usually turn out to be real energy suckers..

but having been through hell already, I knew this would be cake. I kept reminding myself, I'd rather be here than in Changi.. still sucks to be a trainee again though..

though I've convinced myself to be optimistic about this.. after all, it's what I hoped for.. and I got it..