nothing to lose

It's great sometimes to feel like you got nothing to lose. but then comes the afterthought, I have nothing to lose.. which essentially means you have nothing of value to treasure.. isn't that just sad?

So to hold on or the let go .. that is the question.. Its like a hanging on a ledge.. holding on would require strength, tire you. it'll be painful. It's so much easier to let go, but if you let go you might break a leg from the fall.

I found that I've been holding on to my life, and I tell myself it's 6 more months why give in now.. why let go. cause with loads of duties pouring in, and a new heavy kind of responsibility it's easy to give in and immerse myself in work. cancel my plans for getting a driver's license, for recording and re-recording my songs, for pursuit of certain happiness, cause I'm tired. cause if I let it all go I won't have anything to lose anymore.

But I'm not. This can be said as a last stand, a 6 month stint. and I'm still out there trying to find joy. but what have I got to lose from this? only lots. and if I survive, it'll all be worth it.