hometown

alot of performers/entertainers of any sort will tell you that performing in their hometown, in front of their friends and families is often the toughest.. the irony is that to the people who probably won't care if you screw up and will still love you anyway, it's always the hardest to be transparent.

It's why sometimes I like meeting new people who I know won't stick around for long, and won't have any kind of serious business with me. I can be anyone I want .. I can take a break from being me.. I can take the chance to burn of whatever negative thoughts and emotions I have. I told this guy that I'm kinda like peter-parker.. Though he's under the impression that I'm total joker, crazy hyper kind of guy (my fault), it is just my alter ego. under that I really am just a reserved, introverted, kinda-geeky-like guy..

yep. I said that. Tell me I'm not going crazy.. no one believes me anyway, which makes it all the more better.. I could be totally transparent about all my dark sides for a change, without having the fear of being constantly judged.. I love my life, but sometimes I just think I'm kinda screwed up as a person.