Beyond these grills

So I look out my window.. beyond the metal grills and I see a beautiful sky.. azure.. Its cloudy yet with a sense of hope as bright the white light radiating from the other side..

I see a bright sky and I like it.. what I hate are these grills.. they're right in front of me.. I want to stare into the beautiful blue sky in admiration but every time I look up I see these grills and they cause massive irritation to my eyes (literally) .

So I moved the grills.. it only made me realize that my frustrations were not caused by the diagonal grills hindering my view.. but it was the glare.. For I have been living in the dark for awhile now that I've grown accustomed ..

when people ask me 'eh lao chao peng, what's your plan after ns?' sometimes my mind just blanks.. 'going to ord soon ?' me : 'no laahh' It's not that I've got totally no plans or direction. I do have a general direction.. and I do have specific goals in mind. but the future, it's just too glaring.. and besides, everything changes so quickly nowadays.