time for change

on this strange cold morning, I woke up with a runny nose.. crawled out of bed as I look to the time. Satisfied I had 10 hours of sleep. It's gonna be a long time again before I will be able to do this, as next week I start my course.

Not too enthused about going back to being a trainee again, but it'll be different this time. I'll be handling needles, not weapons, manuals and textbooks, not 20+kg dive gear strapped to my back. I won't be in on weekdays anymore, but I'll be home for the weekends, more consistently.

I'm anxious about it, but it's a good thing. I think, after all my current job is really starting to get on me. I'm gonna miss mornings like these.. waking up to not a worry in the world. alone in my home, having all this time to myself.

When I was still in a hell of a fire, people always complained that it isn't fair. our pay is shit, and we get the most shit. well life isn't fair, life is unbiased, it doesn't recognize your deeds, your morality, it doesn't judge. I just got lucky this time.