sometimes..

I've been out of camp since last friday morning. Booking in tomorrow morning and that is a real mood killer. what's worst is that I'll be grinding duty this weekend.. I really don't feel like sleeping..

empty bed, empty feelings all night long..

was watching prison break just now, gripping... even more awake now..

at the desk now..

no amount of cool gadgets on this desk's gonna cure this mood..

Throw in a an emo-ish song and... (yes it's that song! that song they keep playing in transformers)

Feels like enlistment blues all over again.. Come this friday, I'll have a year more to go.

sometimes I wonder why I waste my time wondering why I'm stoning. Then I begin to wonder what could possibly make this better, and it scares me. It scares me cause non of the options involve dealing with it. It's always about running, I'm always running.. and It always make things better, for awhile, for a long while.. only sometimes, just sometimes.. I realize how fucked up it is.

Oh well. I'm gonna watch jimmy kimmel till I fall asleep.