what lies ahead

My contract with the office has just been terminated yesterday and I'm going to be a security guard next week. incidentally, my ex-course mate's graduation was yesterday. I knew this day would come eventually and I knew it would suck..

It did. Although I gladly made a decision never to be a part of them again, it's something I can never have and I wonder what's it like. It's like going to your old flame's wedding and wondering ' what if it was me up there' (though that never once happened to me)

I guess what we all are missing in life is contentment and direction. simple contentment in what we have, it's so hard to achieve in this modern world. and knowing your purpose here on this lonely planet.