welcome back to dreamland 2

Ok this is probably an effect from feeling so bloody exhausted.. but yea once again, I feel like I'm in a 'fake' world. like one of those mmorpgs and I'm a character in it. someone out there is controlling my actions, I have absolutely no life.

maybe this is how ns desensitizes us to feel absolutely lifeless hence become mindless killing machines to support a war effort should the need ever arise..

anyway, it's been a really hard week.. and people all over are already telling me, 'eh how ar.. I want to quit ah.. cannot tahan liao' can't say the thought never crossed my mind, for I too am hanging on for life, praying every night that I'll be granted peace of mind.

this all feels so surreal..