off I go now

no one told me that leaving home gets harder every week.

I thought this kinda thing supposed to get easier as time goes by..

I may have felt different just about an hour ago, and will probably feel different tomorrow.. but right now, this very minute. I just want to die. It's a incomprehensible feeling, trust me. 

I have so little yet so much, to stand for to believe in..

oh and happy birthday wherever you are. 

takes a deep breathe.. sigh and off I go..