Watched wall-e last night.. It's good, one of the best animation films I've seen..

went to wala for a couple of drinks after... and in my state of sleepiness, intoxication and erratic emotions.. I blabbered whole lot of crap in realization about how I was feeling 1 week from ns.. he probably forgot 80% of what I said by now.. but hey, I still think it's worth a mention here.. so here goes..

I think the past few months have been most meaningful.. and it doesn't feel forced either.. It's not like.. ohh I'm gonna go in.. i must do this.. i must do that.. It's more like.. okay.. I'm gonna have myself a good time.. here's what I wanna do.. 

I said I would still do it.. i'm 75% sure.. if knowing all that I've been through, all that has happened.. and knowing where I stand today.. I think it's worth that I'll still do it.. you're starting to think I've lost my mind.. well.. this' just the tip of the iceberg..

I also said that I kinda liked being in this position.. though it totally sucks.. I like how I sometimes feel like crying but I laugh instead.. I like how my mood swings from up to down like crazy.. it give me drive.. and that I feel like I have to be stronger.. It changes the way I see things... (okay now you think I'm crazy) 

I feel pretty fortunate..

yup...