this is it

So I went to get my bike back from kai.. cycling always makes me feel so free, like I could fly.. but now that I got my bike back home, I don't think it'll be going anywhere anytime soon.. This is it.. getting my bike back was perhaps the last thing left on my unofficial list of things I wanted to do before going in.. I'm done.. 

anyway.. I think going in does weird things to people.. In my case it certainly does.. went to church with my parents the other day and I was telling mom about how it kinda sucks that everyone around was all .. " hey dun be sad lah.. dun be sian lah.. be careful lah.." cause it really doesn't help your mood.. (though it's a nice gesture lah..) then I told her not to worry, but to trust that I can take care of myself..  but anyway.. for the first time in a very long time.. I held my mom..  (last time I did that I was a kid..) 

It's ironic.. I think ns has brought me closer to alot of people, and pretty soon they're gonna pull me apart.. oh, and how odd that ling msned me.. cause I myself was going to msn her on the count of it's been awhile since we spoke.. hah... kinda nice surprise there.. and my uncle came to visit me too.. and ya know.. these are just the kind of little things that make my (last few) days. (see I told you ns did weird things to me, now I'm all cheesy)

So for what it's worth.. I now face ns with a stronger motivation..