okay this sucks.. never mind, leave now and save yourself from a whole load of emotional crap. yes I'm not gonna swallow them this time, I'm already full. (yes kids you can swallow your emotions leaving a sharp pain in your rib temporarily) and besides this post contain nothing interesting and really isn't meant for the general audience (its personal). but of course by saying that you're definitely gonna go ahead and read it now.
I'm going to try to be most honest and upfront on this. I wanted this, I wanted change that wasn't possible or at least a resolution. We weren't going to go anywhere with half the band serving ns now. we hit a dead end a long time ago and it's been sliding all the way down. I knew this, and I've been in denial. so now, finally.. it's time to move on..
so if you read this you must know how much you guys mean to me. I don't know if you'll understand how I feel, I think I'm different. I'm way too passionate. I can't nonchalantly suggest that we'll still have time to have a little fun once in a blue moon, cause then it'll mean nothing. it'll just be 4 people playing music in a room. no connection, no heart, no soul. and I think every band needs that. and I felt it slipping, the room getting colder every time.. so I wanted to say, hey it was fun while it lasted, lets have a good goodbye while we still have a little soul.
I'm sorry if I sound really abstract (there is no easy way to explain this), and for giving out a really gay vibe. ah heck.. my last act now would be to produce the songs we played. for keeps sake. and cause I wrote them and love em all. (:
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