Then and now

One of my earliest memories as a boy was the time spent everyday after play-school and before my parents got home. I would kneel on a chair so that I was just tall enough to peek outside the window. Both my parents were working back then so they hired a maid. It was usually at around 4-5pm, when the maid would go cook dinner while I would go to my window.. I don't know how often I did this, but I guess it must have been quite a lot since it's one of my more prominent memories.

As a little boy I missed my parents a lot, since they both worked and sometimes did overtime. Staring out the window was a way for me to deal with that sense of uncertainty and insecurity, and for most parts I remembered songs being played back.. Either in the background by the old hi-fi set, or I would just hum them. One of the songs I remembered was that 'that doggie in the window' song. I figured I must have stared outside the window imagining there was a cute little doggie on the other side of the block staring back at me.. another song I remember is 'yesterday' by the Beatles..

Funny that I still do that sometimes whenever I'm feeling lost, uncertain or just sad.. the songs changes, but they're still the same kind of songs, soothing and comforting.. The difference; back then all my troubles ended the moment my parents returned home.. Now I'll just wait till an answer falls out of the sky and with open arms, I'll catch it.