I'm bored

So my recovery isn't going as smoothly as I imagined. I still walk with a limp and might fall anytime and I can't lift my leg when I'm sitting down.. It's demoralizing, your brain is tells your leg to move but it doesn't.. It simply doesn't.. I try harder and my leg sends a shock-wave of pain to my brain. thankfully, cause if it weren't for the pain, I would think the muscles in my knee's gone paralyzed or something.

I'm hoping it's not anything serious, I dunno.. damaged ligament? omg hell no. . It's nothing.. It's nothing.. All I can't think about is recovery.

If I ever become paralyzed or anything of that sort. Please kill me, I'd just give up anyway..